I am talking about MEDITATION. Can you meditate? For years I tried to bring this practice into my life. After all, I am a type A personality. And I am not talking an A- either. I excel at motivation and drive. I do not stop until I get the job done kinda gal. I always knew it would be good for me to learn how to mentally “check out” and just “be. I just did not know how to accomplish it. I read books, watched videos and listened to tapes. But I just could not relax and I certainly could not just observe my thoughts and let them pass through like leaves in the wind without attaching myself to them. It was frustrating which did not help me feel better. In fact, it did the opposite. Every time I’d try and fail I would feel like something was wrong with me. Until…..
About 7 years ago I developed some peripheral neuropathy as a result of a stomach virus. They call that side effect Guillain-Barré Syndrome and I was lucky that mine was mild. Some people end up on life support for awhile and others die. I just had pins and needles in my hands and feet. I got off easy. Anyway, in a quest to get relief from this annoying buzzing in my extremities, I happened upon a device called a “Rebuilder” which was being used to treat diabetic neuropathy with great success. It was FDA approved and insurance would cover it if there was a medical need. Sign me up!
I ordered and received my equipment which consisted of a small rectangular box with 2 dials and electrodes that you attach to the bottom of your feet and palms of your hands. I am not too keen on electricity passing through my body, but I gave it a go. It felt kind of strange…like tickling but I tolerated it well. Once I got used to my 30 minutes a day I started to realize something. When I used it, I could mentally “check out” and not focus on my thoughts. I did not fall asleep. In fact, I’ve tried it for insomnia and it never works. Instead it puts me into a deep relaxation where my brain can take a breather. When I snap out of it. And that is what I do…after about 15 minutes of relaxation I snap up and feel so refreshed it is amazing.
It did heal my neuropathy over time, but it gave me so much more. The ability to relax and finally…..meditate!